Vexed,

I'm changing my rules.
Never think a day is normal till it's 23:59:59.
I hope one second isn't enough time to build up a storm.

I thought today was a normal day,
Well, I was wrong.

So what's up what's up?
Why you fussing now?
Breathe a little, lie a little,
Relax a little now.

I hate emotions.
Hate is an emotion.
I hate hate.
I hate emotions.

Emotions make people lose their nerves.
Emotions make people violent.
Emotions make people lose logic,

Emotions make people weak.

I'm staying.
Please don't wreck the place.

Don't lose your nerve, don't lose you nerve, don't lose your nerve.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

swing swing ;
7:15 PM;

swing swing ;
4:07 PM;

defused the mine,
this is not what i meant when i said i liked hugs.

toe's being a throbbing bitch.
it hurts like hell, hope my nail grows back properly.

i'm an angel with a plastic halo and paper wings,

this week has started on a pretty bad note,
from letting go of something important yesterday,
to injuring my toe today and stepping on the minefield again.

i need to be careful.
i need to be strong.

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3:23 PM;

I feel remorse,
I know I am able to,
but I'm never going to start listening to myself again, am I?

I'm sorry I let things go.

**

Went for Love for a Dollar cip at Lot 1 today.
I am an epic failure because I get flustered when it comes to things I have to do with my hands.
I know it's just gift wrapping, damn it.
But it'd felt like a SPA okay. Yknw, practicals?
Not cool, dude, I know, right?
(Don't laugh at me, seriously. I'm depressed enough.)

Hahah, thank god that was just one customer. They didn't exactly have a very good attitude anyw, so HEY, I'M NOT SORRY FOR BEING FLUSTERED AND MAKING YOU WAIT (:

Uhm, Sandy got pretty pissed at them for donating a few cents only lol.

(Again, I'm sorry I let things go. I ought to say thank you. :/ But it's always difficult to say goodbye lawl.)

Ate at Koba for the first time in a long long time. God, I swear, they made the biggest mistake ever when they closed down that damn JEC. And now Jiayi tells me it's not gonna ever open again. Whattheshit?

Anyway, flustered..
Sigh, I'm very sad lol.

**

Didn't go dokidoki,
but was close enough.
Wasn't my usual type,
but was close enough.

动心，

遗憾 ):

swing swing ;
7:35 PM;

Caution: This may be a bit of a bimbo post (cus i can't really think now)
so.. :D

AHAHAHAHAHAH sorry here's the promised post i forgot to post ._________.

anyw, these few days have been pretty happening (:

firstly, i went out on.. monday i think, to ion orchard to meet haiwei,
who i haven't seen for like, a long long time!
so, like, yay!
so i ended up making new friends too, namely anissa and jason ahahahaha.
they're really friendly people ohmygod.
(and the four of us turned out to be rather fond of taking pictures)
so we took pictures (:
(the christmas tree at ion was pretty i swear. and i think i should tour the place more, i live so near, but i know so little!)

then on the 8th, (yes i remember the date all thanks to gohjiayi.)

JIAYI: OHMYGOD, THE 8TH! I CAN'T WAIT!

and yes i do agree that in the end, the 8th turned out to be something to "can't wait" for.
hey, taylor lautner was drool-worthy hot okay.
edward was.. haha, i'm not gonna comment,
but the thing (yes, THING.) i like most is,
JACOB WEREWOLF!

goddammit, the wolf's cute kay.

i like sherlock holmes and the wasting bullets thing too,
and i like the "marshmallow" thing!
*winks, jacob jacob!*
because i'm lacking a word to insult people with (:
hmm, i hate the chinese translation of everyone's names.
ai de wei, or smth like that. goddammit.

so the movie kinda sucked la, cus.. wadde, the.. nvm.
dont want to spoiler.

we had a superb time, cus i really love my gang.
they are a good gang yknw, i think tht facebook picture is gna stay thr for a very long time.

then, thr's the really big news,
i finally removed my bracies.
and hooray to me, cus.. lol, i also dno why must hooray.
need retainer, and i STILL can't smile too wide, cus can see the outline.
ahwell, i shall stick with my closed-mouth smile.

oh, and one of the dentist was darn amused at my "antics"
hey comeon, i was a little tense,
and my gag reflex is really strong,
(no i didn't gag lol)
and they're making me real nervous, yknw, prodding around, and it's just sensitive,
and,
WADDE, WHAT'S WRONG WITH BEING TENSE? LOL.
heh, so i was tense, and the dentist called me cute.
(of course i'm cute. no need to say i also know. XD)

hmm, so..
seriously, man. it's kinda uncomfortable now, cus it's still rather sensitive.
ah, guess i shall just wait till thurs, for the retainer, then..
should be fine bah.

troublesome ):

sigh, sian leh.

i dno how i can be so easily confused and overly sensitive when i am a master of mixed signals myself.
i give out mixed signals all the time, i confuse people,
but people confuse me easily too.
too easily.

like i said, a bimbo post.
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalala.

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9:33 PM;

omg, i remove my braces le :DDD
i tell you, it's darn weird not feeling the metal and.. plastic(?) in my mouth anym.

lol.

aw man, but i can taste the slight taste of blood in my mouth. ><
(so this is what it feels like to be a vampire huh? XD)

HUALALALALALALALALALALA,
(:

will post again when i get home bah, most probably after the cleaning :DDD

LOL..
LALALALALALALA

(i want watch avatar &sherlock holmes. okay, must jiayou first, work before play :D)

BTW!
I LOVE HATSUMI,
I LOVE ONII-CHAN :D
I LOVE AZUSA O.O
I LOVE RYOKI! <3

LALALALALA. (GOING MAD, IGNORE PLEASE :D)

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3:14 PM;

Mess.
*draws squigglies everywhere*

But I have this sneaking suspicion it wouldn't be such a mess if i wasn't miss understood again.

Oh well, I've got past it. Nobody's gna clear up the mess, so I'm abandoning it.
Even though it's created a hole in me.
My HP has gone down quite a bit.

But I have those potions and whatnots with me, right?

I love messes.
Gives me a reason to create an episode.
I'm an attracting attention brat.

I really wish I wasn't Miss Understood again.

My past mistakes,
they will never be forgotten.

How can I not be like this,
this.. character of mine,
if.. I'm not allowed to make mistakes.
If, I'm hard on myself when I screw up?

But if I'm really so hard on myself,
why am I making even more mistakes?

Goes round and round.
I can't stand it.

**

Edited:

Lol. As usual, making it worse.

Damn aftermath.
I can't even recuperate from the mine explosion.

So much for the belief that she would understand, she would help me.

Look, I'd have apologised for asking you to come home because I was weak,
because I couldn't bloody handle it.

I would have.

But since you're being so bloody difficult about everything as well,

I'm shutting my bloody trap up.

You're not the only bloody victim okay,
you snap sometimes too, I've seen it before.

WHY CAN'T I SNAP FOR BLOODY ONCE?!

I'm just not in the mood to talk about it, why can't you leave me alone.

I'm fine with pretending everything's fine.
I'm listening to my music,
I'm fooling around with my Facebook.
I'm not messing around with your head,
so stop messing around with mine together with her.

I thought we were supposed to be on the same side?

Wth.

swing swing ;
10:10 PM;